i'm thankful for...
~brothers and sisters
~air conditioning!
~my husband
~my ipod
~clean sheets
~francine rivers
~feeling the baby move
~cool nights with the windows open
~bethany dillon's song "beautiful"
~frozen lazagne that cooks in under an hour
~baby stuff!
~scrapbooking mags that inspire me to create
~re-discovering old cds that i love
~an organized desk
~target
~walks in the mornings when it's still cool outside
~my new brownie camera
~better than 20/20 vision
~my husband's hugs
~memories
~dinners with friends
~kitties! (i miss nani...)
~mutts comic strip (it never ceases to make me smile!)
~a beautiful house
~my brown maternity cargos
~jamba juice
~jack johnson
~argyle socks (seriously!)
06 June 2006
the dog days of summer
well...summer has offically hit central california. the high today? oh...just a balmy 99 degrees...should be LOVELY. *sigh* i'm seriously melting. thankfully john's sister has a pool...i've been frequenting it quite often. the cool water does provide a bit of a reprive.
on the baby-front...the baby's doing good. after a slightly rocky first trimester...i have offically entered the "feel good" trimester. i still haven't quite got the "feel good" part of it yet...but i'm confident that they're just around the corner. thankfully...most of my nausea is gone...but i'm still dog-tired all the time. even a half-hour walk requires a two hour recovery period (read: naptime!). i'm trying to be healthy and exercise...but it's pretty hard when i can't swim more than a few laps at a time. oh well...along with feeling better i'm supposed to be gettting more energy too. i'll keep my eye out for the ups man to drop that energy by... ;)
anyways...not much else is going on in the anaya household. i'm headed to washington for peter and erin's graduation in a few days (just a little bit embarrassed that my little brother is graduating before me...*sigh*). i'm so looking forward to it! not only will i get a brief break from the oven down here but i get to hang out with my way-cool little bro and sis-in-law, my parents and one of my best friends! after the grad...i'm heading to canada to visit with a really good friend of mine for a few days. i can't wait! :)
welp...i hope everyone's first week of june is going swell..."talk" to you later! :D
on the baby-front...the baby's doing good. after a slightly rocky first trimester...i have offically entered the "feel good" trimester. i still haven't quite got the "feel good" part of it yet...but i'm confident that they're just around the corner. thankfully...most of my nausea is gone...but i'm still dog-tired all the time. even a half-hour walk requires a two hour recovery period (read: naptime!). i'm trying to be healthy and exercise...but it's pretty hard when i can't swim more than a few laps at a time. oh well...along with feeling better i'm supposed to be gettting more energy too. i'll keep my eye out for the ups man to drop that energy by... ;)
anyways...not much else is going on in the anaya household. i'm headed to washington for peter and erin's graduation in a few days (just a little bit embarrassed that my little brother is graduating before me...*sigh*). i'm so looking forward to it! not only will i get a brief break from the oven down here but i get to hang out with my way-cool little bro and sis-in-law, my parents and one of my best friends! after the grad...i'm heading to canada to visit with a really good friend of mine for a few days. i can't wait! :)
welp...i hope everyone's first week of june is going swell..."talk" to you later! :D
15 April 2006
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GOING TO BE A MOMMY!
kinda crazy.
semi-offical due date: 7 december 2006 (praying it's earlier cuz i wouldn't wish a december birthday on anyone...especially my own child! lol...)
i'm 4-6 weeks along...so not very far...but my first "official" doc appointment in on the 28th of april...so we'll know more then!
semi-offical due date: 7 december 2006 (praying it's earlier cuz i wouldn't wish a december birthday on anyone...especially my own child! lol...)
i'm 4-6 weeks along...so not very far...but my first "official" doc appointment in on the 28th of april...so we'll know more then!
06 March 2006
me? infused with holy? nah...
so i've been thinking a lot lately about the whole "being made in God's image" thing. chris rice started it with his song "the final move" (love it!)
...molecules and men infused with holy...finding our way around the galaxy...
infused with holy...hmmm. makes me wonder how my life is changed by that fact...conviction much? *sigh*
so my english prof says i've got the "juice" (his word...not mine) to be a novelist. i'm not sure what to do with that. should i be thrilled or terrified? i'm leaning towards the latter. so what if i can write? it seems like it's just one more thing i can fail at...one more opportunity for people to critisize me...one more thing...it's always one more thing. just like with my photography stuff...i'm so stuck in a creative rut right now. it's like i'm afraid to be creative because i'm scared people will laugh at my pathetic attempt at creativity. what if they think i suck?
WHEN WILL THE INSECURITIES END?????
i almost feel like my camera's gonna jump up and start praising God (the rocks will cry out...) because i'm doing such an apathetic job of it right now. i'm supposed to use my talent for God's glory...so why do i feel like i don't have any??????
"i have a song...
so let the earth sing along
cuz i just wanna praise You"
just one of those days i guess...
14 February 2006
mexico...
k...i promised a week ago that i'd write about mexico...and here it is. i'm finally getting around to it. what an awesome experience! first of all...what a blessing to be able to take off for an entire month! that was totally God right there. we spent the first two and a half weeks in a little town called tangancicuaro (don't even think about asking me how to pronounce that...) and the second half in cancun. john's parents grew up there in tangancicuaro...and it's right in the middle of the state of michocan. they still have a house there...so that's where we stayed. absolutely beautiful! it was the REAL mexico. none of this touristy beach town stuff that i'd come to associate with cancun and other coastal mexican cities. we walked to the market everyday to buy our groceries for the day...we'd get this juice...MAN! it was a hundred times better than jamba juice. everything fresh...blended up before your eyes and then the funnest part...they gave it to you in a plastic bag with a straw instead of a cup! so fun...i miss that juice. anyways...we did a ton of stuff while we were there...went to a bunch of different towns...most of which i'm sure you've never heard of since i'd never heard of them before i visited them. they were tiny and unique and so very mexican. i picked up a lot of spanish while i was there...i can almost get around by myself without john as a translator. i can't barter or haggle with the sales people yet...but i get the basic jist. oh man...i wish i could tell you about all the fun experiences we had while we were there...but your eyes would probably fall out before you finished reading. so i'll just stick to the highlights. one of my favorite memories is of a little girl named katrina (almost like my name! but pronounced karina...without the T). her parents are friends of my inlaws...and we had dinner at their house one night...and they came over for dinner another night while we were there. katrina's about six years old...and beautiful! i think i uploaded a picture of her into my album...if not...i'll be sure to do that soon. (there's for sure one on my website) anyways...for some reason...she just fell in love with me! the only problem was...she doesn't speak english and my spanish is horrible. she just couldn't understand why i couldn't understand her all the time! i kinda turned it into a game...but really...it made me sad. cuz she wanted to share her secrets with me...but most of the time i had no idea what she was saying. well...when we go back...i'll be sure to know more spanish...that way we can chat all we want and make fun of the silly boys and all that fun stuff.
anyways...my parents flew down on the fifteenth...what a fun experience to share with them! hopefully we can do it again someday...then the four of us flew to cancun on the nineteenth. that time was spent mostly relaxing on the beach...such a hard life. ha! although one day we drove to this really cool ecopark thingy. i'm not exactly sure what to call it. it was kinda like a zoo in that it had wild animals...but it was also like a park cuz it had beaches to relax on and activities to do. there were also nightly shows about the mexican culture...those were killer! the first show we saw was a horse show...pretty cool. the second one was all about the myan culture...super interesting. they play this weird game that's kinda like soccer...except instead of using their feet to move the ball around...they use their hips. it's really cool to watch. then they played this field hockey like game...except there was no net...just a bowl of fire as a goal...and oh yeah...did i mention the ball was on fire? yeah...instead of a puck (like in hockey) they used a firey ball. and of course they don't wear shoes...yikes! then the final show of the evening was a performance showcasing all the different mexican states. that was fun to watch.
let's see...what else? my parents took off on the twenty-fourth and left john and i in cancun for another few days until the thirtieth. we celebrated our first anniversary in cancun...actually the whole vacation was kinda the celebration...so the actual day felt rather anti-climaxtic...but still. it was our one year anniversary for crying out loud. i can't believe it...it went by so darn fast!
probably the coolest thing about the whole vacation was the things that God taught me about Him and about me and my photography. it would take another novel to explain all the stuff He taught me in that month...so again...i'll just stick to the highlights...but really...it was an amazing God time. first of all...i took almost 3500 photos while i was there. whoa. that's a butt load of images. and that got me thinking about why i do what i do...just to have an incredible scrapbook or coffee-table-worthy photo album? nah...i realized that it goes so much deeper than that. i have this passion for great photos that i can't put out. and i don't know where God's gonna take me with this passion right yet...but i do know it's from Him and He's got some great plans for me and my passion. (compassion international...here i come! lol...) He also helped me realize that i do take good pictures. it may sound weird to some of you...but i'd never really thought my photos were anything special. they were just something i enjoyed doing...and if they got to the level above snapshot...well...wouldn't that be something. but God really got to my heart and let me know that He wants to do a lot more than that with it...and that i don't have to worry about whether or not i have talent or whether or not people even like my stuff. that's His job...all i have to do is show up...camera in hand. and that...i can do.
the other thing i wanted to share that God taught me came from a song...so of course i havta write the words here...(it's by nichole nordeman...of course)
did You come that we might just survive?
did You come so we could jsut get by?
did You walk among us so we might merely limp along beside?
i was bound, i have been set free
but i have settled for apathy
did You come to make me new
and know i'd crawl right back into the skin You found me in?
it's where i am, not where i've been
You make me want to live
You make me want to live
You came to shake us and to wake us up to something more
than we'd always settled for
and You make me want to live...
we've all been up on the mountain top
a golden glow that's bound to soon wear off
then it's back to the mundane telling tales of glory days
when we were hopeful that this change was here to stay
so why would a young man life in a waste land
when the castle of his dreams is standing by?
and why would a princess put on an old dress
to dance with her beloved and a chance to catch his eye?
You make me want to live
You make me want to live
You came to shake us and to wake us up to something more
than we'd always settled for
and You make me want to live...
i was wandering along the secluded beach humming that song to myself...not really paying attention to the words (or the fact that i was getting the sunburn of a lifetime...yike-o-la.) just watching for cool shells tucked away in the sand. it wasn't til i got on my hands and knees in the sand that the words started coming to me...it was like i was hearing them for the first time. and i realized three things. first of all...i realized that God knew about that moment before i was born...before the beginning of time even...He put those shells on that beach just for me to find. isn't that the coolest thought? i know God made everything for us to enjoy...but it was like i was touching something that i KNEW God had touched before...very powerful. secondly...i realized that the Christian life isn't about always being on an "emotional high". i've always known that intellectually...but my heart that was feeling so barren and dry finally got it on that beach in cancun. my heart understood that just because i couldn't feel God didn't mean that He wasn't there walking beside me on that beach (with sunscreen on most likely...heh...no sunburn for Him). so what that my Christian walk felt like back to back monday mornings...He was still there with me. what a comforting thought! and finally...the last thing i discovered while i was getting burnt to a crisp on that stretch of beach is that while there were plenty of beautiful, whole shells scattered around my feet (courtesy of hurricane wilma)...i was mostly attracted to the broken ones. the broken ones had more character...you could see their insides (which were often times really bright beautiful colors)...the whole shells...the "perfect" ones just weren't as attractive to me...and that got me thinking. that's kinda how God sees us. we're no where near perfect...often times as far from perfect as possible...yet He created us...and He finds us so unbelievably beautiful we take His breath away. another comforting thought...God doesn't expect me to be perfect...He knows i'm not. He doesn't want perfection...He just wants a willing vessel. mmmhhh...thank you Father for that beautiful time on that little beach! despite the sunburn...it was amazing experiencing God in the process of finding my twenty pounds of shells (literally...it's quite ridiculous...but so very fun at the same time...)
anyways...this is getting really long...i didn't mean to get so carried away. sorry about that. give a call if you'd like to chat more about mexico...or check out my pictures on my website. don't worry...i didn't post all 3500 of them...although i thought about it. haha...just kidding. (here's the url again since so many people seem to be having trouble with it lately...www.betterphoto.com?kayti7. no spaces!)
anyways...my parents flew down on the fifteenth...what a fun experience to share with them! hopefully we can do it again someday...then the four of us flew to cancun on the nineteenth. that time was spent mostly relaxing on the beach...such a hard life. ha! although one day we drove to this really cool ecopark thingy. i'm not exactly sure what to call it. it was kinda like a zoo in that it had wild animals...but it was also like a park cuz it had beaches to relax on and activities to do. there were also nightly shows about the mexican culture...those were killer! the first show we saw was a horse show...pretty cool. the second one was all about the myan culture...super interesting. they play this weird game that's kinda like soccer...except instead of using their feet to move the ball around...they use their hips. it's really cool to watch. then they played this field hockey like game...except there was no net...just a bowl of fire as a goal...and oh yeah...did i mention the ball was on fire? yeah...instead of a puck (like in hockey) they used a firey ball. and of course they don't wear shoes...yikes! then the final show of the evening was a performance showcasing all the different mexican states. that was fun to watch.
let's see...what else? my parents took off on the twenty-fourth and left john and i in cancun for another few days until the thirtieth. we celebrated our first anniversary in cancun...actually the whole vacation was kinda the celebration...so the actual day felt rather anti-climaxtic...but still. it was our one year anniversary for crying out loud. i can't believe it...it went by so darn fast!
probably the coolest thing about the whole vacation was the things that God taught me about Him and about me and my photography. it would take another novel to explain all the stuff He taught me in that month...so again...i'll just stick to the highlights...but really...it was an amazing God time. first of all...i took almost 3500 photos while i was there. whoa. that's a butt load of images. and that got me thinking about why i do what i do...just to have an incredible scrapbook or coffee-table-worthy photo album? nah...i realized that it goes so much deeper than that. i have this passion for great photos that i can't put out. and i don't know where God's gonna take me with this passion right yet...but i do know it's from Him and He's got some great plans for me and my passion. (compassion international...here i come! lol...) He also helped me realize that i do take good pictures. it may sound weird to some of you...but i'd never really thought my photos were anything special. they were just something i enjoyed doing...and if they got to the level above snapshot...well...wouldn't that be something. but God really got to my heart and let me know that He wants to do a lot more than that with it...and that i don't have to worry about whether or not i have talent or whether or not people even like my stuff. that's His job...all i have to do is show up...camera in hand. and that...i can do.
the other thing i wanted to share that God taught me came from a song...so of course i havta write the words here...(it's by nichole nordeman...of course)
did You come that we might just survive?
did You come so we could jsut get by?
did You walk among us so we might merely limp along beside?
i was bound, i have been set free
but i have settled for apathy
did You come to make me new
and know i'd crawl right back into the skin You found me in?
it's where i am, not where i've been
You make me want to live
You make me want to live
You came to shake us and to wake us up to something more
than we'd always settled for
and You make me want to live...
we've all been up on the mountain top
a golden glow that's bound to soon wear off
then it's back to the mundane telling tales of glory days
when we were hopeful that this change was here to stay
so why would a young man life in a waste land
when the castle of his dreams is standing by?
and why would a princess put on an old dress
to dance with her beloved and a chance to catch his eye?
You make me want to live
You make me want to live
You came to shake us and to wake us up to something more
than we'd always settled for
and You make me want to live...
i was wandering along the secluded beach humming that song to myself...not really paying attention to the words (or the fact that i was getting the sunburn of a lifetime...yike-o-la.) just watching for cool shells tucked away in the sand. it wasn't til i got on my hands and knees in the sand that the words started coming to me...it was like i was hearing them for the first time. and i realized three things. first of all...i realized that God knew about that moment before i was born...before the beginning of time even...He put those shells on that beach just for me to find. isn't that the coolest thought? i know God made everything for us to enjoy...but it was like i was touching something that i KNEW God had touched before...very powerful. secondly...i realized that the Christian life isn't about always being on an "emotional high". i've always known that intellectually...but my heart that was feeling so barren and dry finally got it on that beach in cancun. my heart understood that just because i couldn't feel God didn't mean that He wasn't there walking beside me on that beach (with sunscreen on most likely...heh...no sunburn for Him). so what that my Christian walk felt like back to back monday mornings...He was still there with me. what a comforting thought! and finally...the last thing i discovered while i was getting burnt to a crisp on that stretch of beach is that while there were plenty of beautiful, whole shells scattered around my feet (courtesy of hurricane wilma)...i was mostly attracted to the broken ones. the broken ones had more character...you could see their insides (which were often times really bright beautiful colors)...the whole shells...the "perfect" ones just weren't as attractive to me...and that got me thinking. that's kinda how God sees us. we're no where near perfect...often times as far from perfect as possible...yet He created us...and He finds us so unbelievably beautiful we take His breath away. another comforting thought...God doesn't expect me to be perfect...He knows i'm not. He doesn't want perfection...He just wants a willing vessel. mmmhhh...thank you Father for that beautiful time on that little beach! despite the sunburn...it was amazing experiencing God in the process of finding my twenty pounds of shells (literally...it's quite ridiculous...but so very fun at the same time...)
anyways...this is getting really long...i didn't mean to get so carried away. sorry about that. give a call if you'd like to chat more about mexico...or check out my pictures on my website. don't worry...i didn't post all 3500 of them...although i thought about it. haha...just kidding. (here's the url again since so many people seem to be having trouble with it lately...www.betterphoto.com?kayti7. no spaces!)
08 February 2006
my heart is dismayed...
and this is why...spring is here. waaaaahhhhh! that means summer isn't too far off...and for those of you who don't know...i simply cannot handle the summers here. 103 in the shade? um...no thank you.
it's been crazy warm here...it was almost 70 degrees yesterday! the almond trees are blossoming and you'll never guess what i saw in a nearby pasture yesterday...lambs! oh...they were so cute with their little knobby knees that could barely hold their bodies up! but still...i felt a little twinge of sadness as i watched them play...cuz i know spring never lasts long enough and then all of a sudden...it's summer and i'm sweating. ugh.
it's been crazy warm here...it was almost 70 degrees yesterday! the almond trees are blossoming and you'll never guess what i saw in a nearby pasture yesterday...lambs! oh...they were so cute with their little knobby knees that could barely hold their bodies up! but still...i felt a little twinge of sadness as i watched them play...cuz i know spring never lasts long enough and then all of a sudden...it's summer and i'm sweating. ugh.
04 February 2006
i won!
k...this may seem silly to some or maybe even most of you...but that's ok. i have to share my excitement!
you know those mini handheld poker games? well...my mom got john one for his birthday last year...and it's been sitting on the back of the toilet since then...for you know...to help pass the time when you're sitting. heh. anyways...i was playing it earlier today and i beat the game! i know you can't really beat a handheld computer game...but i got the ultimate...a royal flush! i didn't even think that was possible. haha...that's 5000 points! so...now i can't ever play it again...cuz i don't want to ruin my super high score. hmm...guess i'd better go buy another one. heh...
you know those mini handheld poker games? well...my mom got john one for his birthday last year...and it's been sitting on the back of the toilet since then...for you know...to help pass the time when you're sitting. heh. anyways...i was playing it earlier today and i beat the game! i know you can't really beat a handheld computer game...but i got the ultimate...a royal flush! i didn't even think that was possible. haha...that's 5000 points! so...now i can't ever play it again...cuz i don't want to ruin my super high score. hmm...guess i'd better go buy another one. heh...
31 January 2006
welp...we're home.
doesn't that just say it all?
huh. wow. it's weird to be home after being gone for a month. everything looks different...but the not at the same time. even my kitchen seems bigger to me (ugh. more to clean...)
so i'm completely overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done around here...the fridge is completely empty (except for a couple wrinkled apples...and some mustard. yum?)...the laundry is attempting mutiny with plans to take over our bedroom...there's sand in the suitcases...i have worship practice tonight...school started yesterday and i'm already behind...i have over 1,000 pictures (the number is shockingly closer to 2000) to upload onto my computer and work on...sigh...and here i sit...writing to my blog. not surprising i suppose. oh well...there's always tomorrow right? heh.
anyways...i have so much to share about my month in mexico...but i really do need to get started on stuff around here. maybe tonight when things settle down i'll post another blog...
hope everyone's january was splendid!
oh...and for those of you who requested postcard (and for a few of you who didn't)...they're on their way. the whole $.39 stamp (and the fact that they cost almost a $1.50 to send from mexico) thing kinda threw the whole thing off...so...sorry they're a tad late. better late than never eh?
huh. wow. it's weird to be home after being gone for a month. everything looks different...but the not at the same time. even my kitchen seems bigger to me (ugh. more to clean...)
so i'm completely overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done around here...the fridge is completely empty (except for a couple wrinkled apples...and some mustard. yum?)...the laundry is attempting mutiny with plans to take over our bedroom...there's sand in the suitcases...i have worship practice tonight...school started yesterday and i'm already behind...i have over 1,000 pictures (the number is shockingly closer to 2000) to upload onto my computer and work on...sigh...and here i sit...writing to my blog. not surprising i suppose. oh well...there's always tomorrow right? heh.
anyways...i have so much to share about my month in mexico...but i really do need to get started on stuff around here. maybe tonight when things settle down i'll post another blog...
hope everyone's january was splendid!
oh...and for those of you who requested postcard (and for a few of you who didn't)...they're on their way. the whole $.39 stamp (and the fact that they cost almost a $1.50 to send from mexico) thing kinda threw the whole thing off...so...sorry they're a tad late. better late than never eh?
02 January 2006
i'm off to see the wizard...
well...the day has arrived...a bit wet and windy...but it's here nevertheless...we're leaving for mexico!!! YAY!
technically we don't leave the country til tomorrow...but one of john's friends is coming out to pick us up in a few hours and we'll spend the night in the bay area since we havta be at the airport so bloody early.
so. we'll be gone til the 30th of january. i'm not sure how much access we'll have to the internet...but we're taking john's computer and maybe i'll pop into a few internet cafes if i get a chance.
looking forward to taking some awesome pics!
if you want a postcard from us...post your address in the reply section of this blog...
have a great january!
technically we don't leave the country til tomorrow...but one of john's friends is coming out to pick us up in a few hours and we'll spend the night in the bay area since we havta be at the airport so bloody early.
so. we'll be gone til the 30th of january. i'm not sure how much access we'll have to the internet...but we're taking john's computer and maybe i'll pop into a few internet cafes if i get a chance.
looking forward to taking some awesome pics!
if you want a postcard from us...post your address in the reply section of this blog...
have a great january!
31 December 2005
happy new year!
yikes! only three days til john and i leave for mexico! how crazy is that?
for those of you who don't know...john and i are taking a very extended vacation to mexico for the month of january. yes...you read that right. the entire month! kinda crazy i know...but no one ever accused us of being boring and typical right? heh. i guess when we planned this vacation we didn't really think about how long a month really is...i mean a TON of stuff goes on in a month! hello...who's gonna pay the bills? get the mail? pick up the paper? take out the trash? (well...since we're not home i guess there won't be any trash to take out...but that's besides the point). plus i have the christmas present for my brother and his wife that i've been trying to finish for about a month that i really need to get in the mail before we leave...but i'm not sure the post office is even open on monday! yikes...guess i'd better find that out.
so. it's new year's eve. anybody got any big plans? john and i are headed over to some friends house for a little shindig...the boys just wanted an excuse to play poker i think...not quite sure what the girls are gonna do. oh well. i can't stay very long anyways since i havta be at church early on sunday morning. i'm singing in the worship service. thankfully...the pastors decided to just have one service (thanks pastor mike!) at 10.45am...so instead of having to be at church at 6.30am...i don't havta be there until 8.30am! yay! so i guess i can stay up to ring in the new year...shout HAPPY 2006! and then head to bed. that's sounds like a good plan...
anyways...i'm totally wasting time here. i've got to get packing!
have a safe and fun new year's eve celebration!!!
28 December 2005
the saddest day of the year...
today is officially the saddest day of the year...i'm putting away christmas decorations! waaaaaahhhhh! even the sky is crying with me...it's raining cats and dogs at the moment. the house just seems so bare and empty without the festive fun christmas decorations bring. i get so sad putting away the ornaments we got this year...the month of december just went by way too fast!
anyways...i've gotta get back to it...i was just taking a quick break from all the melancholy-ness around here...
27 December 2005
bethlehem town...
wow...christmas is over. so much anticipation for a day that comes so slowly but ends so quickly. i'm working on putting all our christmas decorations away over the next couple days...i've gotta get them all taken down before john and i head to mexico. we leave on the third...so i have a few more days. it's so sad putting all the decorations away...knowing a whole 'nother year will go by until i see them again. the house seems so empty now...
but anyways...i was listening to one of my favorite christmas cds one last time before i put it away last night (although they never really go away since i do have a terrible habit of listening to my christmas music year round...haha!)...and i wanted to share the lyrics to one of the songs on it with you...it's by jars of clay (of course it is!)...and it's called bethlehem town...
oh mary, joseph, rest your eyes/try not to think of the ending/world full of empty, He will die/but tonight He is still just a child.
the silent night drifts all away/and the angels are dancing around you/there's the joy of knowing He'll save the world/overshadowing the pain that He'll go through
have you cursed at the wind?/have you cried to the heavens?/have you fought with this mercy you don't understand?/when the wise men kneel down/to kiss the hand of this king they found/in bethlehem town...
will you hold back the years awhile?/will you dream that this man could always be a child/and never carry the weight/of the dirt and the distance and the company we keep?/and did the stars shine much brighter that night/"you gave birth to the death that would bring us to life?"/and did the mystery keep you awake?/or was the sound of His little heart too much to take?
oh...i don't understand/when the wise men kneel down/to kiss the hand of this king they found...
have you cursed at the wind?/have you cried to the heavens?/have you fought with this mercy you don't understand?/when the wise men kneel down/to kiss the hand of this king they found/in bethlehem town...
i love that line in quotes
22 December 2005
happy birthday to me?
hmm...
i'm 25 today. i'm really having a hard time wrapping my head around that...25 seems so old! quarter of a century right? sheesh.
i opened all my presents up this morning...my mum spoiled me something rotten! it's funny to me...cuz i wasn't really expecting much this year...i mean i just got married and i'm not exactly a kid anymore. ya know what i mean? i guess i just kinda figured that once i hit the 25 mark...things like tons of presents from my parents would kinda taper off. not that i'm complaining or anything...
anyways...john's taking me to the movies tonight in honor of my special day...and i get to pick the movie! so...we're going to go see chronicles of narnia. from what i've heard...i'll definitely havta take along a box of kleenex! i really wanna read the books again...just cuz i haven't read them in so long (prolly since middle school) but wouldn't ya know...since the movie came out the library can't keep them on the shelves! maybe i'll go buy the set for my own library...no late fees there! haha...
alrighty then...i guess i'm off...
only three more days til christmas...can i get a woot?
20 December 2005
i feel like singing...
"it's the most wonderful time of the year"...!!!
i'm just kickin' it after dinner with a nice glass of vino (for the non-spanish speakers among us...that's WINE) listening to trace bundy (despite the questionable name...he is a must listen! check out his dvd clips online at http://www.acousticninja.com. and a big thank you to luke for turning me onto him...great stuff!)...and just generally reveling in the fact that my birthday AND christmas are less than a week away! yippee! for those who are unaware...or maybe have just forgotten...i am a christmas freak! i'm one of those people that listens to christmas music all year round...and actually gets excited when the inflatable santas show up at costo before labor day (not that i approve of inflatable santa in any way. quite the contrary actually...i think they're not only tacky but a huge waste of space. still...they are the first signifier that christmas is on its way!!!) pathetic...yes...and i'll be the first to admit it. but i think a lot of my love of christmas stems from being born so close to the darn holiday! i have a very special story to share about my love of christmas...and i hope luke doesn't mind. i talked with my mom on sunday and she told me that luke (who is now home) told her that "christmas just won't be christmas without katie here". awww...isn't that sweet! it brought tears to my eyes...literally! partly because i love how sweet my youngest brother is (something the other one never specialized in...sorry pete...your strengths lie elsewhere! and that's a good thing!!!) but also because i'm slightly disappointed that i won't be able to be with my family on christmas. i know i've said it before...and i'm thoroughly excited to have christmas with just john and i...this being our first christmas as a married couple and all...it's just that i really will miss waking up to celebrate christmas in the tegeler household. i guess it's only appropriate though since technically i am no longer a tegeler. still...i will be missing my family on christmas day that is for sure!
after i finished talking with my mom...i talked with luke for a bit and he elaborated on his statement about christmas not being the same without me...he clarified that the reason it won't be christmas is because i'm the only one who actually squeals at the opening of gifts. yes it's true...i squeal. so i guess what luke was really saying is that christmas won't be nearly as ENTERTAINING as it has been in the past without me squealing at the knowledge that i just unwrapped a pack of lifesavers.
now...for a truly heartwrenching story...there was a christmas when i wasn't quite so cheerful. my mother actually shared this story at church last sunday...and since she already put it so nicely into words...i think i'll just copy and paste it right here...
"The next memory I’d like to share is a little more recent. My daughter, Katie, was 6 or 7 (i'm pretty sure i was eight...but anyways) and had been asking for a kitten the previous year. I told her she had to be old enough to take care of it, which might happen when she reached the magic double-digit age of 10 (a tragically long time away!!). That, of course, was a lifetime away and totally unacceptable to her. So, Christmas morning came and I carefully handed her a box to open. You’ve got it…there inside the box was a beautiful white…stuffed cat! Oh my! The look of total disappointment. She was crushed! (it's true.) I wish you could see the video I was taking at the time…the look on her face is enough to make Scrooge tear-up. No, I didn’t run out and bring in a real kitty…she was stuck with the stuffed cat for at least another year! Katie still has horrible thoughts about that Christmas. As she said, “It was the worst Christmas ever!” (you know what's funny...i have more memories from that christmas that all the others...kinda sad actually...)
Two Christmases with a common theme--disappointment. (i didn't include the first memory my mom had...but it was similar to the first with the exception of my mom as the protagonist) I know these are not the only ones…you can probably come up with some of your own and not only from childhood, either. The thought I’d like to leave you with is one you probably can come up with on your own. Christmas isn’t about the gifts we receive or even the gifts we give. It’s about God coming to earth for us…not with a lot of fanfare (o.k., a bunch of angels singing in the sky can be considered fanfare, however that was only to a few unimportant shepherds)…not with anyone noticing (o.k., some kingly wise men had some idea about it and showed up a couple years later). Jesus came to add meaning to our disappointments. We will have many disappointments in our lives…many a lot more important that these I’ve described. Jesus wants us to give him those disappointments, to trust him to bring something good out of them, and to have them draw us closer to him. So, when you are disappointed at Christmas or anytime, remember to go to the One who overcomes all disappointments with His love."
isn't she so wise??? way to go mum! and it's true...i did learn my lesson after that christmas not to put your hope in the material boxes under the tree...cuz really...where your treasure is...that's where your heart is right? as much as i love christmas...i really don't want my treasure stuck under a dying evergreen tree for one month a year...
i'm just kickin' it after dinner with a nice glass of vino (for the non-spanish speakers among us...that's WINE) listening to trace bundy (despite the questionable name...he is a must listen! check out his dvd clips online at http://www.acousticninja.com. and a big thank you to luke for turning me onto him...great stuff!)...and just generally reveling in the fact that my birthday AND christmas are less than a week away! yippee! for those who are unaware...or maybe have just forgotten...i am a christmas freak! i'm one of those people that listens to christmas music all year round...and actually gets excited when the inflatable santas show up at costo before labor day (not that i approve of inflatable santa in any way. quite the contrary actually...i think they're not only tacky but a huge waste of space. still...they are the first signifier that christmas is on its way!!!) pathetic...yes...and i'll be the first to admit it. but i think a lot of my love of christmas stems from being born so close to the darn holiday! i have a very special story to share about my love of christmas...and i hope luke doesn't mind. i talked with my mom on sunday and she told me that luke (who is now home) told her that "christmas just won't be christmas without katie here". awww...isn't that sweet! it brought tears to my eyes...literally! partly because i love how sweet my youngest brother is (something the other one never specialized in...sorry pete...your strengths lie elsewhere! and that's a good thing!!!) but also because i'm slightly disappointed that i won't be able to be with my family on christmas. i know i've said it before...and i'm thoroughly excited to have christmas with just john and i...this being our first christmas as a married couple and all...it's just that i really will miss waking up to celebrate christmas in the tegeler household. i guess it's only appropriate though since technically i am no longer a tegeler. still...i will be missing my family on christmas day that is for sure!
after i finished talking with my mom...i talked with luke for a bit and he elaborated on his statement about christmas not being the same without me...he clarified that the reason it won't be christmas is because i'm the only one who actually squeals at the opening of gifts. yes it's true...i squeal. so i guess what luke was really saying is that christmas won't be nearly as ENTERTAINING as it has been in the past without me squealing at the knowledge that i just unwrapped a pack of lifesavers.
now...for a truly heartwrenching story...there was a christmas when i wasn't quite so cheerful. my mother actually shared this story at church last sunday...and since she already put it so nicely into words...i think i'll just copy and paste it right here...
"The next memory I’d like to share is a little more recent. My daughter, Katie, was 6 or 7 (i'm pretty sure i was eight...but anyways) and had been asking for a kitten the previous year. I told her she had to be old enough to take care of it, which might happen when she reached the magic double-digit age of 10 (a tragically long time away!!). That, of course, was a lifetime away and totally unacceptable to her. So, Christmas morning came and I carefully handed her a box to open. You’ve got it…there inside the box was a beautiful white…stuffed cat! Oh my! The look of total disappointment. She was crushed! (it's true.) I wish you could see the video I was taking at the time…the look on her face is enough to make Scrooge tear-up. No, I didn’t run out and bring in a real kitty…she was stuck with the stuffed cat for at least another year! Katie still has horrible thoughts about that Christmas. As she said, “It was the worst Christmas ever!” (you know what's funny...i have more memories from that christmas that all the others...kinda sad actually...)
Two Christmases with a common theme--disappointment. (i didn't include the first memory my mom had...but it was similar to the first with the exception of my mom as the protagonist) I know these are not the only ones…you can probably come up with some of your own and not only from childhood, either. The thought I’d like to leave you with is one you probably can come up with on your own. Christmas isn’t about the gifts we receive or even the gifts we give. It’s about God coming to earth for us…not with a lot of fanfare (o.k., a bunch of angels singing in the sky can be considered fanfare, however that was only to a few unimportant shepherds)…not with anyone noticing (o.k., some kingly wise men had some idea about it and showed up a couple years later). Jesus came to add meaning to our disappointments. We will have many disappointments in our lives…many a lot more important that these I’ve described. Jesus wants us to give him those disappointments, to trust him to bring something good out of them, and to have them draw us closer to him. So, when you are disappointed at Christmas or anytime, remember to go to the One who overcomes all disappointments with His love."
isn't she so wise??? way to go mum! and it's true...i did learn my lesson after that christmas not to put your hope in the material boxes under the tree...cuz really...where your treasure is...that's where your heart is right? as much as i love christmas...i really don't want my treasure stuck under a dying evergreen tree for one month a year...
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