tears and introspection.

today is a sad day. my parents had to put their dog, tipper, down today because she has a chronic bladder condition. they thought they had fixed it but it turns out the surgery wasn't successful and her stones came back. i loved that silly little mutt and really wish i could've seen her one last time. as annoying as she could be...she was a precious little pup...i'm gonna miss her. she lovedlovedloved belly rubs and i loved giving them to her. my favorite memory of her was when i was on the phone with my mom and she put the phone up to tipper's ear and instead of trying to eat the phone like she usually does, tipper heard my voice and plopped right down on her back in anticipation of a belly rub. wish i could've given her one more...







Your wind is mighty...it bends the backs of trees
it moves among the fields along these california streets
we've come to know as highways...they can take us anywhere
but all we know is where we're going and how fast we're getting there
the world outside my window is shaming me again
with the things i haven't seen cuz i've been writing about them
the sky's a waiting witness to the truth i would possess
but i've forgotten all its mystery in my quest for second best



i want to live with wider eyes...there's far too much to see
to think of nothing else but where i've been and where i'll be
i've been longing for the freedom that is waiting silently
in the life that's just beyond the small perimeter of me



Your rain is mighty...it weathers mountainsides
it raises these canals til they look a mile wide
and i think that i have crossed them on a bridge a thousand times
and haven't even seen the rivers from the corner of my eye
i'm frightened by how easy it can be to live so long
going from one thing to the next thing to the next til months have gone
and you realize you have really not done anything at all
at night you fall asleep believing you've just climbed so you could fall



and i don't believe that who i am is something i can find
it's whatever i create with what i do with all my time
it's who i choose to love with all my heart and strength and mind
and whether i believe that what i have is really mine



i want to live with wider eyes...there's far too much to see
to think of nothing else but where i've been and where i'll be
i've been longing for the freedom that is waiting silently
in the life that's just beyond the small perimeter of me